P.S. To learn more about the military, my abused child hood, and ever thing else I have learned you will just have to wait till the chapters come a long. Because that is exactly what a tale about a person is, a chapter in their life.



When I was a kid I didn’t have many friends. Not because I couldn’t make them, I couldn’t keep them because in no time I was in another world. By the time I turned 15 I had live in 30 states and moved so many times in those states I have lost count.

Yes, it had helped me be open to many types of things, people, and ideas. On the other hand, instead of learning and experimenting like most, I was moving. It can get awkward when someone asks where I am from. How would I know? I had never been in a place where I had much of an impact, or more of had an impact on me.

As for social graces, I know how to be polite and inviting; but never quite grasped the other part. The conversations, the things people remember you by. I became fairly well at disappearing. And because I had moved so much I wasn’t even close to the standards of people around me. Though I love defying standards, it made me stick out. And though some attention is good, I get stage shy and well prefer not to be in the lime light.

I am also really good at adjusting for a while. However, the fact being I never really had stability, I never learned how to be stable. So in some ways I am flighty.

Since I had left the military I went to the only place that would take me. My mothers. I hadn’t lived there in six years, so it was definitely an experience. There were a few kinks in this living arrangement. One I was watching the baby as if it was my full time job. And two I was in a house/ home/ family that in many ways were foreign to me. Three, the area my mom lives in is very small and secluded. Not small like a Podunk country town that I know and love, but a fairly snobbish area with no jobs and even less unmarried non high school people. This town doesn’t have a coffee shop or book store.

Six months of staying inside had given me cabin fever. Even in Florida. The urge to make friends and truly start over is becoming a huge part of my life.

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